She's Gone

I looked at the PC and each time when the screen saver flashes her image, I would smile and say a little prayer, "May Allah bless her in heaven.."

A year has passed of which recalling the moments watching her motionless with tubes and wires all over her. Hearing the beeps from the life support system is like taking each breath that inhale, leaving me gasping for air. While kissing her hands, I whispered.."mom... we are all loving you, everything will be okay and we will take you home soon."

My heart sank as I saw tears at the corners of her eyes. I kissed her forehead, kissed her eyes gently and went to her ears and whispered.."Mom, I love you..."

My two sons who watched walked away silently, and stood at the window looking blankly. Both brothers were looking teary. They just couldn't stood there to watch me swallowing so much sadness.

Mom passed on Mother's Day and this year, 2010, the thoughts of her last few moments sinking me deep in tears. I missed her so badly, we all missed her so badly....

There is so much to be written here but my tears are taking in control....

I wish to kiss her again on her cheeks and ...wishing to have her hug me tight while I whisper to her..."Happy Mother's Day Mom..."